When you have choices, choose one...

Today is 12th June 2013. It was 10:10 PM on my computer clock when I started writing this post. However when I'll publish this post, the post may date back to 12th May 2012 but I am not sure. This post was there in draft condition without getting published and without anything written in it except the post title. For some reason today I thought of  completing it. May be today I have the appropriate situation and experience about writing on the subject matter of the title than I had on that day when I created this post about one year ago. Perhaps it was due to that reason that this post was empty so far silently waiting for the right day and the right time to come. It seems today is that day and tonight is that time.

I wouldn't have thought of writing this unless something good had happened. That something good happened when I read the title of the post. At this phase of my life I was in a dilemma regarding whether to proceed with something or not. I found no values in either proceeding or not proceeding. So for the past few days I have been kind of living in the palace of nowhere, which means I was just going through life without choosing either of the choices. But this had created a hollow inside my mind. I was going insane because I didn't know what else to do. I had nothing else to do because that something  proceeding with which I was unable to decide was everything to me. That something was like the sole reason of my life and when I got into dilemma regarding that very thing my life lost its value, lost its purpose. I started living without any reason. It was all good until 1st of June when this started. So for the past 10 days I was like dead until I stumbled upon the title of this post tonight. And as I did, all the thoughts and ideas that I had then while creating the post one year back came into my mind and it cleared my state of dilemma. I suddenly saw light. I had choices but I was choosing none. And this act of not choosing was causing the problem, the problem of a meaningless life; because when you have choices, you must choose one. Not choosing is not a choice.

Life goes on. In fact life is meant to go on and while moving on with life you will come across different choices yielding different outcomes. This choosing of the available choices is what keeps the life going. Like a new born baby will die if its development is stopped somehow, life will die (i.e. will lose its purpose) if its on going motion is stopped somehow. When you choose not to choose from the choices that life brings upon your path, you actually choose to stop the ongoing motion of life and when you do that it is obvious that life will lose its purpose. We have to keep moving, keep going on with our lives by choosing the right choices. We may take our time but sooner or later we have to choose something to keep our lives going. Postponing to choose or to not choose at all will only result in waste of precious time. So when you have choices, choose one..

Before beginning there was a choice...

The thing called life has the habit of putting us in situations and stages where we are left only with choices if nothing more. Few years after we find ourselves to be the product of those past choices. Who knew at the time of choosing what consequences will follow the decision!! We calculated, expected and predicted how life would be. But life being unpredictable and uncertain the outcomes are not always up to the expectations and predictions. Sometimes they are below and sometimes they are more than what we had expected. Whatever may be the results, one thing always holds true. It is our association of expectations with the available choices.

The reason I stated these because as a living human being with a life, I am now put before two choices. For the past 5-6 years I have been living with these two choices choosing none. The outcome is now only a disaster. Let me explain. I had before me two roads that lead to two different cities both are the best in their class. But in a dilemma, being unable to decide which city to go, I could never leave the village and standing at the same place I always have been. This is what I said living with choices but choosing none. The results of this type of conditions are simply "no devlopement" state. Well, actually deciding which city to go was not the choice I was put before, those are only explanations. I was and still put before the choice of what kind of Life to live.

To my belief there are two types of science. What we all know is the Materialistic Science and the other is Spiritual Science(will explain in later posts how I came to this conclusion). To desire and pursuit emotions and materials of this world is what most of us including me do. This is what we perhaps say Life, to want, to plan to get what we want, getting what we want, then want more and then more, simultaneously taking an emotional roller coaster ride.The instantaneous content of our mind at anytime(while not sleeping) will be either one or numerous desires( either short term or long term ) or involvement in a set of actions to attain the desires. To my brief experience of Life, I have found it to be like this. This is to me is the Materialistic way of Life. But to my knowledge there existed another way of life, yes, the Spiritual Way. This type of life has its foundations based upon the state of no desires. See the heaven and hell difference between the two ways of life. One can not exist without desires and the other asks for no desires (not always, will explain in later posts). I with my little brain did all the research that I could because I am a human and blindly following anything and blindly taking any decisions are injurious to human mind and body I believe. I followed the Spiritual way of life for few years (perhaps I have been always and still doing) and continued to live in a Material Dominated world surrounded by people having desires and expectations. The word "people" that I stated in the previous sentence also includes me. I was no exception to desires though I knew desires are not a part of the Spiritual Life I wanted to pursuit. So being surrounded by desires and also by rules to follow for a spiritual life, it was like I was ceasing to exist in either of the two ways of life. Neither I followed Materialism nor I did Spiritualism. Now you can say what I meant by saying living with choices choosing none. Whenever someone talks me about spiritual things, gods, goddesses, sin, soul, life, death etc I listen him with an expectation of finding something new(because I think and feel that I am inquiring about God , me and you i.e. humans). But hardly I find any spiritual talker and if I do so, then hardly I find anything new. So as you now know what my dilemma is, I think I will say what my choice is. Obviously I will say why this blog exists though I am not sure of the cause of my own existence(Why ? I will post about this later someday).

After inquiring what I could, after studying whatever I could and yes, after listing , watching , banging my head against the wall, scratching the head always when getting puzzled until I felt no hair like substance on it(i.e. I went bald, not whole, its pattern baldness) I finally decided to decide. And the decision was to postpone the decision to a near future(probably 50-60 years). Well, just kidding. Now I know you are damn sure that I am a human being like you, not any prophet giving spiritual talks. Well, I live in the 21st century, I do have computers that are connected to the Internet and I am aware of blogs. So why should not I blog !! And if I will blog, then why this for my own sake? why not for others (This is due to the fact that, "THOSE ONLY LIVE WHO LIVE FOR OTHERS" -Swami Vivekananda) ? I am not labeled with a philosopher tag, but still I am a thinker like you. Sometimes I get amazed by some thoughts that my brain thinks. So why should I let them fly away ? Let me capture them, but where ? well, on paper by pen but this way perhaps and yes perhaps I will get benifitted(why? well, on later posts) but why only me ? why not you ? So the desire came to have a blog( You see, the desire I was talking about ) so that someone might someday stumble upon this and having pity on the poor blogger might read few lines or posts and would say, "Alas!! What treasure I discovered!!" which has a probability of 0.01 or even less ( I am poor in Mathematics to the extent you can never guess). Well to conclude, I give you the reason why I postponed the decision and what new decision I took. I am only _1 yrs old, so my journey is not yet complete and my knowledge is not yet enough to draw an conclusion to things about God and Humans. Still what I have is I think enough to everything else. I have the knowledge equivalent to a bottle of water which is nothing in comparison with the Ocean yet it is enough to satisfy the thirst. I am no philosopher, no prophet, no extraordinary man, no enlightened one, I am just as normal as you but as you know everyone has a different perception towards the same thing, I would be posting here my thoughts, views. You are free to ask why. Well, the reason is, what I think and what you think may not create a difference in the world, may or may not it has value to anyone, but I think and you think because we by nature are free men and we are free to think whatever we can in our own domain. What I am trying to do is, just giving my thoughts a web presence. As an individual I have 100% right to be wrong. So somehow if you come across this blog, just read them picking up what you like discarding others and rectifyig my mistakes giving your own suggestions. Kindly ignore my grammatical and spelling mistakes.

So, long story short, in this blog I will be posting random thoughts of my brain but most of them about Life. Not mine, not yours but Life in common. I will be probably posting my own quotations but you cant frame it and put it on your wall with my name under the quote because I am no great man, just as common as you.

"What man is the man who does not make this world a better place" - From the movie, Kingdom of Heaven